Setbacks

Um...hi. No really....hi. Okay, so my last post was on July 15th. 7 weeks ago. I have had some MAJOR setbacks that have seriously derailed my train of thought here lately. I'm not saying they are excuses, but life happened and I really fell off the wagon. Hard. The GOOD news (well, I'm considering it to be good news at least), is that yesterday I drug my ass to the scale for the first time in a month. I fully expected to have gained like 47 pounds and be two seconds away from dying. But, by some miracle, I have gained NO weight. I am exactly the same weight as I was 7 weeks ago when I last posted. How that is possible is truly beyond me. I have eaten a lot of crap. Granted, I have also had good days and have still pretty much avoided the main disasters - i.e. fast food, pizza, etc - but nonetheless I have not consciously been Thinterventioning. So much so to the point that I had to go to my own facebook profile today to go to my own info section to find the link to my own blog so that I could write this entry. How. Sad. Is. That. Eff.

So allow me to catch you up with my variety of reasons for disappearing. Grab some light popcorn and settle in kids. Mama's back.

1. Josh Groban - I feel absolutely no need to tell my Josh story on here because the only people who could possibly read this blog already know the entire story from beginning to end. But I will say the last time I wrote was the day I was going to see Josh. The next two weeks after that (I am not exaggerating) I was on such a high of life that I do not even remember them happening. I spent my days watching the youtube video - in case you want another view Me Singing With Josh - and my nights dreaming of Josh. That is the only conclusion I can reach because it was one big blur.

2. Hot As Hell - So the last time I went to Zumba, also about 6 weeks ago, it was literally over 100 degrees in there. Laura puked, and I almost passed out. We both sort of agreed that the heatstroke was not worth it. Well, that was a fabulous excuse.....for July. And maaaaybe part of August. But that is all. And because I wasn't Zumba-ing (remember how that's a verb kids...) I was also neglecting to focus on my eating as much,too.

3. Summer - Yeah, it happened. Spent every single weekend and half my weekdays at the pool, cold beer in one hand a book in the other. If I wasn't at the pool I was at my sister's house playing in her sprinkler. Or going to a cookout. Or a party. Or traveling and visiting friends and eating crap. Or, as in this past weekend, going to a Caramel Festival where everything was fried. Vacations happened. Eating out with friends happened. Birthdays. Looooots of random nights sitting on decks drinking and listening to music. You can go ahead and exchange every word I just wrote with the words "mucho calories" and you'll get the same conclusion. Summer happened yo.

4. Depression? - Maybe not depression, like clinically. But definitely some sadness. Despite all my awesome travels and food and parties and adventures, I have been really, really sad these last couple of weeks or so. I've tried to drag myself out of the funk, but it just wasn't happening. I'm stressed financially (actually, that is really an understatement), stressed with work (okay, another understatement), stressed with relationships or somewhat lack thereof-ish - just stressed in SO many ways. I feel like I'm drowning some days because I can't seem to get ahead in any respect and it is really getting old. But this weekend I kind of had a chat with myself and I'm gonna need to not be so sad and foul.

I guess those are the biggies. Again, not excuses but definitely parts of the puzzle. BUT, after weighing-in yesterday and realizing I've somehow managed to not damage the work I've already done I felt somewhat re-motivated. I talked to my mom for a while. So much time/money/effort has been put into this thing I am not even remotely considering quitting. I just need to re-focus. So today I am eating healthy (thus far), and I have every intention of going to the gym tonight. Even if I just walk or run or something for a while I feel like I NEED it.

Now, I know what you're thinking - why wasn't this post funny? I clicked on this post for Thintervention humor and am sorely disappointed! Micha you fail! Well, never fear my friends. Because I went to a redneck festival this weekend to rival anything you have EVER witnessed in your entire life. And I will tell you ALL about it. Trust me - you will be so entertained there will be no words. But that shall have to wait until tomorrow because my lunch break is over and I have a crap-ton of work to do. So I leave you with the sad little picture of what I ate for lunch today - a Lean Cuisine and some cheese cubes. Enjoy. And prepare ye ya'll for the redneckery.

Yes. Really.

Micha